This is how you will hurt.
It will be a sunny day and you are still in your room, your curtains drawn to keep the light out, your body shaking under a blanket that just won’t warm you up, but then again, you haven’t felt warm since the day it happened. It is like he took every bit of warmth from your soul, and the only way you will ever feel warm again is if the entire sun grew inside of you.
Your mother is knocking on the door. You pretend you don’t hear her. Your greatest deception since it happened is trying so hard to be normal, and today you do not have the energy for it.
Today, you are going to stare into the darkest corner of your room and wonder why the darkness doesn’t do you a favour and swallow you whole.
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“One day, when it stops.
When you finally feel safe,
it will all fall apart.
Screaming for attention,
it rises like bile.
Crushing your mind,
Memories previously sweet,
erupt into brutalities.
Your life, perceived reality,
shatter into gaslit deceits.
Next, comes the dark.
Bringing self-hate, shame,
For all the sins you didn’t commit.”
-(c) 2018 itstimetogethonest.com
Healthy relationships don’t come with handbooks, and there are no courses or tests to make sure that everyone is fit.
Plus, sadly, many of us were brought up in dysfunctional environments and end up repeating negative patterns taught to us at a young age. Because of this we often pick the wrong people to share our lives with and end up in toxic relationships.
Continue reading “Toxic Relationships, Red Flags, And Self-Care.”
Toxic and traumatic relationships change us. You can or usually will start to adopt warped and negative thoughts and feelings. It’s not your fault!
Continue reading “Things That Happen Because Of Toxic Relationships.”
You never know how strong you are until being strong is the only choice you have. – Bob Marley.
“Perhaps you don’t know that inside me is an angry tiger clawing and snarling it’s way up through every nerve and fibre.
Perhaps you don’t know that the weight of the air on my skin feels like a storm thundering across me like a disease.
Perhaps you don’t know that each day’s sameness brings desperation that knows no bounds.
Perhaps you don’t know that my name is anxiety and although I may look like a person, I’m not.
I’m pain.” – itstimetogethonest 2018