“Windows slammed shut; curtains drawn together, the pounding chaos of the world retreats into out-there.
Daggers of past pain blocked by layers of glass and fabric. The land of crazy-making finally dulled to a harmless roar.
Silly yammering from the TV spills out ironic normalcy.
A blanket’s softness wraps around, warming her like no lover ever did.
Dimmed lights issue a calm that settles, easing her pounding heart.
Sweet baby offers comfort, love, and purrs of content and companionship.
The time finally slows down to a repetitive, peaceful, tic; no longer spinning out of control.”
“One day, when it stops.
When you finally feel safe,
it will all fall apart.
Screaming for attention,
it rises like bile.
Crushing your mind,
Memories previously sweet,
erupt into brutalities.
Your life, perceived reality,
shatter into gaslit deceits.
Next, comes the dark.
Bringing self-hate, shame,
For all the sins you didn’t commit.”
-(c) 2018 itstimetogethonest.com
“Perhaps you don’t know that inside me is an angry tiger clawing and snarling it’s way up through every nerve and fibre.
Perhaps you don’t know that the weight of the air on my skin feels like a storm thundering across me like a disease.
Perhaps you don’t know that each day’s sameness brings desperation that knows no bounds.
Perhaps you don’t know that my name is anxiety and although I may look like a person, I’m not.
I’m pain.” – itstimetogethonest 2018